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2008-08-09 * 11:18 p.m. Minor angst.

Oops, haven't updated this in a while! There is far too much to summarise, but as most of it involves statements such as Chris-is-a-wanker-grr, I can leave out most of the details and give you the main point - me and Chris are over. I've been really quite depressed over the last month or so, and he has done nothing to make me feel better. He put his 'commitments' to his geeky gaming buddies over me, saying he couldn't see me. Then he got a job which I recently found out wasn't every single day as I thought, but 5 days a week. I asked why I couldn't see him once a month for those days - those days are his "me time." I flipped, split us up, then regretted it. Asked if we could try again - he said no, we hurt each other too much. Or something. I wish more than anything that I'd just asked for a break over the summer, but there's nothing I can do about it now. This all happened 5 days ago, and I'm still crying loads and feeling extremely unhappy. Although it's mostly because we've broken up, there's more to it than that. I just know he's going to stop contact with me and pretend I don't exist, like he did over most of spring term. I have gotten used to talking to him every day (though I almost always initiated conversation) and as much as it sounds like I used him, he really was like a crutch to me, keeping me sane and making me want to stay sane. Im really hoping we get back together over the winter term, but I don't think it'll happen. Er, I should end this on a less angsty subject. My life has been so dull though, there's really nothing to report! I really can't wait for term to start up again in September! In the meantime though I have Verity staying over the same day that Laura is visiting Cambridge, and I'm going to Sarah's for a couple of days too. I just need to see people!